I am on my way to Miami to shoot for the week. I'm excited. Ever since I started modeling as a teenager I got such a rush sitting in the makeup chair and having the stylist transform me into whoever I am being for the day. Maybe a massage therapist, a hot mom, an older sister, I play all sorts of roles. I've always loved becoming someone else, in fact when I travel sometimes for my own personal amusement I'll make up a fake name and persona, even going as far as adding an accent sometimes (I'm easily amused). Back to set, I walk in no hair or makeup done and I leave an hour later made up like the Hardcore Barbie I am. This week I'm shooting for RealityKings.com whom I absolutely love. Mister @BradKnightXXX on twitter best described what being on set is like, "You don't get paid to have sex, you get paid to wait". You go in to hair and make up, pick out wardrobe, wait for the producer to approve, then head to set. Once you get to set you're waiting for the camera man, the PA, all the lighting to be correct, it's a process. Once everything is just right then you do your sex stills, the photos purely used for thumbnails and GIFs, possibly a box cover. So, after you have had sex for in multiple positions for a while you do a "fake pop shot", usually Lubriderm or pina colada mix- to this day I can't drink pina coladas without a gag reflex. After the pictures, we do the actual sex scenes. If its a Pro-Am company they usually just let you go at it, most don't. You start in one position for a few minutes then cut go to the next, usually a blow job in between followed by, "Oh my god! My pussy tastes so good on your cock!", and such. The most common question I get is, "Do you actually cum in the movies?". Sometimes. It really depends on who I am paired with and our chemistry. To be perfectly honest, I usually have my first orgasm before the cameras turn on.
I was shooting with Brad in Miami, again for Reality Kings, we were both waiting for our producers to arrive and I asked someone, "Hey! I want to fuck him can we just switch partners?". The producers sadly said no, however, later that night my agent called me to tell me RK picked me up for tomorrow. My talent? Brad! I got on set and got all prettied up and then saw him, ran up to him and told him how excited I am to finally fuck him. We drove to the shoot location together, I made small talk, I usually don't, however, I was super intrigued by this guy. Once we got to the location we fucked all over the apartment before the camera man even got there. The camera turned on and I came even more. Even after set we fucked in the back seat of the car. After that we proceeded to dinner and a movie. We saw Star Wars Rouge which was super long so I played with his cock during the movie too. Two days later, I shot with a different male talent and there was zero chemistry or attraction. We chatted for a bit but for that scene there was not much climax at all.
Even as far as my first anal scene, it was initially a blowjob scene. The location he was renting from was Chris Strokes who was trying to fuck my ass even prior to this scene. I got to set, we hung out and started talking. Chris was awesome. He'll definitely be a long time friend. I did the BJ scene with a butt plug in then after the scene we all fucked around and Chris and I made our business deal. The chemistry makes the scene, no matter what. It was my first time being fucked in my ass by a porn guy and I was so into it I invited the BJ guy to fuck my pussy at the same time. I suppose, I really am an exhibitionist. Having two guys fuck both my holes for the internet to see was such a turn on. I got so turned on I let them do a DV on me. All my followers were like, "This is so early in your career, why would you do your first anal, DP, and DV in one scene?!". My answer? Because that was what I fucking wanted. l am Hardcore Barbie. I might look like a hot model, but when it comes to sex I prefer it filthy. So yes, I gave it all up at once for a small fee- do I regret it? Absolutely not!
The hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around is girls who do this for the money. After expenses there isn't much money left. I do this to satisfy my carnal needs while still making a few dollars. I LOVE porn, but let me be the first to tell you, if you don't market right you'll still do porn and still be broke.
Although, said set above was awesome some are not. Sometimes you're there, the talent isn't your type/ can't perform or just bad day at set. Those are the days you remind yourself this scene is to keep your fan base happy. If everyone got pure pleasure out of porn there wouldn't be any work for anybody. We all have great days as well as bad days, just as any other job.
So, I am en route to Miami as I post this and I am hoping for some more mind blowing scenes. The scenes that I am so excited about that I forget money is even involved. Those scenes are the hottest scenes, I promise you.