My 1 Year in Porn
Pardon the belated post, the older you get the more chaotic life seems. April 20, 2016 I was on a Delta flight to LAX to shoot real porn. I consider this my porn anniversary although I've done smaller clips4sale and such, Porn Valley is just where to go to legitimately be a porn star. I will refer to that phrase later. I stepped off the plane at LAX and took an Uber to the "model house". Usually, a model house would be owned or at least rented by the agent/manager. This sketchy agent had his girls staying in an airbnb off Hollywood Blvd. One girl was on an air mattress, another on the couch. Luckily, I don't trust anyone and procured my own lodging. 1 year ago today I was a non-anal, non-interracial performer. My "agent" told me that if I went all and I quote "Jungle Fever only 5 companies will ever book you". So, a naive girl to LA I listened. I really haven't done much anal in my personal life nonetheless on screen so that was a definite no. My first scene ever was for a web series Eric Swiss was doing. Regular boy/girl, rough, sloppy blowjobs. Borderline degrading, I got facefucked until I almost vomited then wrote "slut" across my tits, while still teary eyed from being throat fucked. That was my first scene. Hello, Hardcore Barbie.
Eric said he had friends who needed girls for anal scenes. He explained if you put a boy/girl vag movie up it will get 50k views, if you put an anal scene up easily 100k if not well more. It is obvious at this point that if I am going to get work I need to learn anal. Again, I haven't even done this often in my personal life.
That trip I shot for Eric Swiss, New Sensations, and American Damsels (I booked that myself).
I really hated staying in Los Angeles, especially going out there to work and you afford your own expenses. After you pay your airfare, boarding costs, testing, ubers/drivers, and the percentage your agent takes you might have done slightly better than a stripper. But not by much.
The other side to this though is once you make a few movies and can be googled you become a porn star escort, offering the PSE ups your rates tremendously. Everyone in this silly business wants to lie and say they don't but here's a reality check: 90% do. An award winning, top of the line performer, might get $1800 per scene for anal- but she's not working everyday. The majority of the industry aren't working every day due to all the tube sites and accessible free porn. What is selling right now? Incestial/barely legal, anal, and interracial. MILFs too sometimes, but even then they're begging for work.
After a few months of observing the business I decided I'd do it all. Black guys, anal, DP, gangbangs, everything, from there I became Hardcore Barbie. I do believe I am pretty enough for Wicked, or Penthouse but, quite frankly, I'm here to have fun. I see many girls now who started around when I did, they're winning awards, doing showcases. Am I envious at times? Yes, Who wouldn't be? But in the end I remind myself porn isn't my life. It's a hobby to me. 1 year in and only a few trips I can't say I really doing bad.
I mentioned the phrase porn star earlier, lets go back to that. What is a porn star? Is it a girl who wins awards? Is it a household name? Is it the girl who is always #1 on Freeones? If I were to walk down the street right now and ask the name of there favorite porn star I think 75% would say Jenna Jameson! The other 25% are unhappily married men who watch porn all the time, who would say Adriana Chechik, Holly Hendrix, Kendra Lust, and so on. Porn stars are a myth now. A wonderful industry friend said, "This is a burn and churn industry". Find a hot new girl, shoot her out, then replace her. If you don't brand yourself you'll be the new last season in no time. I've had several older performers give me business advice that I didn't use until as of recently.
Sentimental Sara: I hate being on the same set as an 18 year old here to make rent. I honestly want to slap her and tell her to go to school. They're are exceptions, I am well off and do this for fun. Those girls I love. But to take an 18 year old give her a few thousand for a couple months then send her back to to her regular life after she is overshot is nothing less than absurd. Porn Stars don't exists, sex workers do. If you choose to join this business understand the two.
Anyways, now that I shared with you my apprehension towards the business, let me tell you about my 1 year anniversary gangbang for DogFart Network. First and foremost, I LOVE this company- I have never been treated so well on set. Most girls wont do IR, I love it. The talent is so sweet, respectful, and courteous, 1 year ago I came to porn not doing IR or anal- exactly one year later I got gangbanged by 5 black guys, including anal and double penetration. If I ever quit porn I will forever work for DogFart Network. This scene was the best scene I have ever done, and in all honesty, my way of thumbing my nose at the business model. I had 5 AMAZING performers, everyone on set was beyond nice to me, and I will highly endorse Dogfart Network for the rest of my career.
Cheers to 1 year guys!
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end." -Ernest Hemingway